justrun-.

shitty sunday

my first duathlon... it sucked. actually i don't know what's the problem here. is it me? okay so it is me then. who else could it be?

yeah and some annoying person knocked my bike over in transition. but it's okay, i forgive you, whoever you are.

my bike chain and frame and everything needs degreasing.. eurgh. just found out that there's such a thing. mm. today i realised how much triathlon has changed/ is changing my life. we often forget to step back and look at the big picture. but then again, after i crossed the finish line i couldn't see my big picture anymore. someone stole it. or maybe someone hid it. who knows. or maybe i just refuse to see it. but it's partly because it's been a scary weekend.

thanks to everyone who talked to me today. especially sianying, clarissa, alisa, thaddeus and lester. you might not have known it but you kept me in one piece today. okay, er so far that is...

urgh. i really don't know what i should be doing right now. and looking back, i have so much to be guilty for. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! my brain's going to die on me.

dammit.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [22:45]

and took [20060226] strides

it's the passion that drives you